this journal is only for two people to read. ONLY two. please don't read this if you're not one of those people. i'll make another journal after this to cover this one. >n>
i don't want the friendship to end.
but fuck, after knowing you talk shit about m behind me back, if you really want to be friends again you're going to need to earn my trust back.
i haven't wanted to talk to you. why? jethuth fuck, i've told you how many fucking times that i need space from you?!
i TOLD you i needed to calm down.
yet you keep sending your fucking minions after me saying "oh she wants to talk to you, oh she wants to talk to you"
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE FOR A LITTLE BIT.
at this point, it;s all on you.
you don't understand what i've been going through in the past FUCKING MONTH.
and here's you, oh my friends aren't FUCKING DYING ALL AROUND ME.
i mean god.
if you want to talk this out so bad, come see me yourself. i told you in that damn letter where i am at lunch.
at this point, i don't care what i'm wrong about in this situation.
because you fucked up too.
and to the other person,
I'M NOT ASKING YOU TO FUCKING TAKE SIDES. I NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT SIDES.
HOLY FUCK.
DID I EVER SAY "TAKE MY SIDE" OR "YOU'RE ON MY SIDE RIGHT" OR ANY OTHER SHIT.
DON'T ACCUSE ME OF SHIT I DIDN'T DO.
GOD.
AM I REALLY THAT SELFISH TO YOU?!
i don't understand why you have to portray me as "TAKE ME SIDE LOL" i don't fucking CARE if you agree with her. i don't care if you agree with me.
think things through because now i can't trust either of you.